pearsnbees

will consist of the following:

Arch 160
assgn. Unfold
assgn. Space Collage
assgn. Animation

Arch 123
2 perspectives
final portfolio
floor plan
weekly drawing
in celebration of...
cd cover

Pols
Study guide
study
DONE


Coms
Group proj.
writing 4
writing 5
take home test
final

Art History
Flash cards
Study guide
study

The first time that I met you I knew
One day I would know you even better
When people tried to tell me "Do not fall for him"
I told myself "Don't let them get to you"

You are the only one I love
You are the only one I love
You are the only one I love to love

You are the only one I love
You are the only one I love
You are the only one

The first thing that you said to me was
"Jamie I love you, Jamie I love you, Jamie, Jamie, I love you"
And I've never been one to believe in love at first sight
But now I know it exists

You are the only one I love
You are the only one I love
You are the only one I love to love

You are the only one I love
You are the only one I love
You are the only one

We went for walks through leaves in parks
Your winter sleeve was pulled over my hand
Don't you know I thought of you when on St. Mark's
I saw some other man collecting cans

You are the only one I love
You are the only one I love
You are the only one I love to love

You are the only one I love
You are the only one I love
You are the only one

Okay so I haven't even been back for a whole 24 hours and I am already counting down the days I do have left and am skipping class :] Not that I just didn't skip a whole week pretty much. But here's my to do list. Try to keep myself focused.

Arch 160
-get help on the view for last project.
-get the last two assignments i missed.
Arch 123
-weekly drawing
-weekly sketches
-two more floor plans(done)
-plus what i missed today
Art History
-read the last chapters I missed
Coms
-outline for persuasive speech(done!)
Pols
-read chapter(done)
-take quiz(done)

dang i need to stop waiting till the last minute.
i wonder how much i will get down hoy.


14 DAYS after today :]

Have you ever wanted anything so much and you always thought " man yeah right i could never get that" and that is how it is with me, with anything. So after looking into a car down the street for sell, a car that I have seen a long time ago and have wanted but thought they had sold it already. A 1950 Chevy Belair. But finally, after working up the courage to actually call about it,  I got discouraged by my father. He said that those classic cars are project cars and that they aren't for driving around but showing off. He's right, I just would love nothing more to have it and drive around in it, at dusk with the windows down and the music playing...sigh. A mint green beauty that will never be mine.

Lately I haven't been feeling so well, I feel so detached. Like I can get interested in what's around me. My mind is on a one way loop, round and round and never ending and never going anywhere. I feel nauseous. I can't focus or get serious on all the work that has been piling up. I feel empty and that somehow I keep screwing everything up.

I have never written this much this often on here :] But today was my first official day of running. I have attempted running before, but why you might ask, is this the official first time I have gone running? It is because I went to get official running shoes, from a guy who analyzed my running. I must confess my feet have never gotten that much attention before and were rather shy. The run was beautiful! My friend took me up to this one bike trail and it was green and gorgeous! :] Loved it. I was amazed at the end to see how much I did. Another side note, I am thinking about getting involved in filming or at least being some part of the movie filming industry. I think it would be amazing. I have always thought about possibly making set or anything really to be a part of it, I am just curious on how I would go about doing i

Till i can go home again!! It's seriously only a matter of days! I wonder if that is a sign that I am going in the right direction? Does it mean that I do not really enjoy what it is I am doing, so much so that I cannot wait to be home. I think it means I need to look at my other options, make sure that the path I am going on is the one that I really want. So....next year I decided to take a year off of my labs and just do a couple arch classes, such as History and structures, but also take photography, graphic design and theater for the heck of it, see what I love to do. It it is architecture then I will fully pursue that, but if not then I will fully pursue whatever it is that I love doing, whether that be here or at a different school :]

I don't remember the dream too well. All I really remember is that I was pregnant and was nearing the end of my pregnancy when I suddenly realized I had no name for my baby :[ I started freaking out and I kept texting someone to tell me what the name of my baby was, but no one ever got back to me. And in another part of it, I don't really remember the details i just remember that i was left and abandoned . It felt like in the dream that was happening a lot to me.

i Had everything that i ever wanted.

    I have just filled out an application for a room in a nice house very close to campus and the friday night youth group I attend. Which is amazing since I do not have a car, and will be able to walk where I need to go :] :] The room I applied for is so cozy, the whole house is cozy, but the room I would rent is a single, with huge windows for two of the walls and a sliding door that opens to the back. The room is pretty big and the rent for it would be not expensive at all. The whole house has a certain homey feel to it and a lot of nooks and spaces for displays. It would be such a blessing if I were able to rent the house.

Ah I hope I hear back from her soon

is exactly 19 years from when I first came into this world. Yup thats right my birthday :] :]
Ah this morning I got so many texts from everyone I know and love making my day :] I was in such a good mood and happy :] I was thinking of going to this Greek resturuant  by myself, there really isn't anyone to go with me. . . but it amazes me how much one person can affect me. I'm pathetic really. I hate birthdays.


Why do i think things will change, I always cry on my birthday.

haha dang why do i procrastinate so much? its not like i have anything better to do or friends out here? haha where does all that time i waste goooooooo? dang        

I cant sleep....as is obvious from the title my fingers are cold i can't type...my heart is hurting i am so confused i dont know what to do...either way i am being selfish....either way i'll hurt him and i dont want to do that i dont want to do that at all i care so much about him...he's my best friend.... have you ever been so sad that you say you want to go home...to the place where you know that there is comfort...but what if you are already there and the pain is unbearable...where do you go?

Okay so my friend ari made me make a new one tonight and here she is sitting behind my laptop making strange faces && popping out form behind my laptop and there is a fire raging behind me. She also attempted to take a bit out of my laptop having a mental relapse and actually thinking that it was an apple...... she is a strange one :]
"if i stuck my tongue in this out-lit would i get shocked? would i?"

so my butt is sore from sitting on bricks for hours figuring this all out...

haha but i have to go movies and knitting are calling out to me


Buenos noches